Who Says I Never Liked Change?

As a kid, I hated change. It got to the point to where I always did the same thing every year...just because I hate change. So of course, when I began to hate psychology, I decided to stick with it. Just because I hate change. 

Yeah, that didn't work out so well. I guess a part of growing up is being ok with change. That's not something I'm comfortable with. So, to take the big step of change (because I am, after all "grown-up") I decided to go on a missions trip to New York. 

.....

big mistake. But the best one I ever made. 

Change comes with trusting God. Again, something that I'm not good with. Trusting God usually involves stepping out of the comfort zone. Something that I really suck at. So, needless to say, New York was a huge deal to me. 

Even though I was out of my comfort zone, I was in God's comfort zone. And that was good enough for me. My grandma asked me if I felt safe. She was actually shocked when I said that I felt perfectly safe the entire time. Honestly, I surprised myself saying that. But it was the truth. Why? Well, simply put, God isn't done with me. And somehow I knew that. 

My team leader, who is freakin' amazing, had some worries. Actually, it seemed like she constantly worried about something. That's usually me. I'm worried about an assignment, or how a friend is doing. But this trip, all my worries were gone. What was different? 

The difference was that I began trusting God. I began to see God in the small things of my life for the very first time. Talk about childlike faith. It was the best experience of my life. I saw God in the people I passed. I saw God in the 9/11 memorial that we visited. I saw God in the different nations flags at the U.N. Most of all, I saw God when I looked at myself. 

That's pretty huge. 

I know I sound full of myself, but it's true. For once, when I looked in the mirror I wasn't focused on my makeup or my frizzy, curly hair. I looked at myself and saw God radiating through me. I saw all the prayers that people have prayed over me shine out. I saw in myself for the first time. 

And that was the week I became ok with change. 

So, in one week, I have decided to change my major. I am no longer Megan, a psychology major with a youth ministry minor at Simpson University. I Megan, a general ministry major with a youth ministry minor. I still have no idea where God is leading me, but I'm ok with that. 

Because I'm in His comfort zone, not mine.